This is my now

2009-10-17T04:43:00.000-07:00

A couple of months since i last blogged.

Ahhh! I'm finally free. After all this time. Hehe :)

Okay, don't know what else to say. Our luck has been really bad. Haihh.

2009-08-04T19:35:00.000-07:00

1. The THING that tagged you is:
Serene :) take out the thing part..

2. Your relationship with her is:
2008.

3.Your first impression of her is:
sweet :) humorous..

4. The most memorable moments with her:
last year, bm set 2 ;) our robert moments..

5. The most memorable thing she has said to you is:
i don't keep track..but i sure miss her :)

6. If she becomes your lover, you will:
be one of the luckiest lesbians on earth ;)

7. If she became your lover, what should he improve at:
nothing much..close to perfection.

8. If she becomes your enemy, what would you do:
most likely not to happen.

9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
hmmm..must be something real stupid.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for her now is:
tel her i miss her so!

11. Your overall impression on her:
fun :D

12. The characteristic you love most about yourself:

everything :) haha.

13. The characteristic you hate most about yourself:
nothing. nothing at all :P

14. The most ideal person you want to be is:
myself!

15. For people that care and like you, say something to them:

iheartallofyou!

16. pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you:

1. Darlini
2. Aaron
3. Celinefoo
4. Aaron
5. Eugenia
6. Justin
7. Minchi
8. Ze-lyn
9. Khoojun
10. queenie

17. Who is 6 having a relationship with:

ohh laa laa..some girl..

18. is 9 a male or female:
Male

19. if 7 and 10 were together, would it be a good thing:
both girls.

20. What is 2 studying at the moment:
same stuff as all unfortunate 9th graders have to studyy.

21. When was the last time you had a chat with 3:
just hi's and bye's

22. What kind of music does 8 like:
i don't knoww.

23. Does 1 have any siblings:
a cool brotha.

24. will you woo 3:
maybe. she's a nice gal ;)

How about 7:
she's a nice gal too.

26. is 4 single:
i think so..

27. What's the surname of 5:
galan :)

28. What's the hobby of 5:
i don't knoww. i just know she's into sports.

29. Does 5 and 9 get along well:
don't know each other. diff schools.

30. Where is 2 studying at:
my school.

31. Say something casual about your eyes:
i like my eyes :)

32. Have you tried developing feelings for 5:
hey hey..girl.okayy.

33. Where does 9 live:
somewhere in malaysia

34. What colour does 4 like:
don't know.

35. Are 5 and 1 good friends:
i guess they've spoken to each other once or twice maybe..

36. Does 7 like 2:

one's from my old school one's from the present. i don't know if they've met each other cause they live just a few metres away from each other :)

37. How did you get to know 2:
Through a friend.

38. Does 1 have any pets:
an uglayyy dog with a name romeo.haha.contrast.

39. Is 7 the sexiest person in the world:
you can say so ;)

finally.back to the books.zzz.

dum dee dum

2009-07-25T01:11:00.000-07:00

Geez, it's been long..

i was busyy.

*sighhh..

love,
pookss.

是你带我找到另一个天堂远比想像中更美

i won't say..

2009-07-06T06:14:00.000-07:00

If there's a prize for rotten judgement
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history, been there, done that!

Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'
He's the Earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, ya can't conceal it
We know how ya feel and
Who you're thinking of

No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no

You swoon, you sigh
why deny it, uh-oh

It's too cliche
I won't say I'm in love

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry your heart out
Oh

You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown-up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad

No chance, now way
I won't say it, no, no

Give up, give in
Check the grin you're in love

This scene won't play,
I won't say I'm in love

You're doin flips read our lips
You're in love

You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say it

Girl, don't be proud
It's O.K. you're in love

Oh
At least out loud,
I won't say I'm in love..

Hercules - I won't say (I'm in love)

long long long.

2009-07-01T05:50:00.000-07:00

1)Name - Fanny.

2) Male/Female - Female. well, actually im a trannie. lol, just joking.

3) Were you named after anyone? - NOT gonna answer any name questions. pfft.

4) Does your name mean anything? - gawddammit.

5) Nick Name(s) - pooks.

6) What do you think you look like name wise? - arraaagghhhh!

7) Date Of Birth - 26th.

8) Place of Birth and Current Location - Malaysia.

9) Nationality - Malaysian. sadly.

10) Astrology Sign - Gemini :)

11) Chinese Astrology Sign - dog.

12) Religion - Catholic.

13) What’s your favorite smell - Rosemary.

14) Political Position - Okayy, right.

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning? - Water.

16) Hair + Eye colour? - Black. i've always wished for auburn hair..

17) Do you look like anyone famous? - I am famous.

18) What do you look like? - gahhh, i dunno la.

19) Any unusual talents? - i can make cracking sounds with my wrist :D

20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous? - ambidextrous.

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other? - straight? weird question.

22) What do you do for a living? - live my life.

23) What do you do for fun? - stuff.

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with? - UHU glue

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with? - dunno luhh.

26) Have you met your grandparents? - yes.

27) Boyfriend /Girlfriend? - not a chance.

28) Crush? - la da di dum..

29) What celebrity would you date if you could? - taylor lautner.

30) Current worries? - PMR projects.

31) Favorite online Guy/Girl: err.

32) Favorite place to be? - depends on who you're with.

33) Least favorite place to be? - depends.

34) Do you burn or tan? - tan, i guess.

35) Ever break a bone? - nope.

36) What is your favorite cereal? - honey stars.

37) Person you cry with - my mwammy.

38) Any sisters - 2 rascals.

39) Any brothers - Sadly, none.

40) Any pets - a fuh-reaking turtle. pfft. it doesnt DO anything. jus swims around. it's not mine, btw.

41) An illness - RSI. really.

42) A Pager - uhh, no. it's the 21st century people.

43) A Personal phone line - Nope.

44) A cell phone - it's gone for the meantime. 102 days till i get it back :(

45) A visible birthmark - yep.

46) A Pool or hot tub - pool.

47) A Car - I can't WAIT to drive my very own.

Describe Your :
48) Personality - quiet.

49) Driving - in a couple of years, you wait.

50) Your clothing style - Anything that suits my liking.

51) Room - light blue.

52) What’s missing - i need EXCITEMENT.

53) School - Sri Sempurna.

54) Bed - Supersingle. to match my status :D

55) Relationship with your parents? - complicated..

56) Believe in yourself - well, it depends.

57) Do you believe in love at first sight? - Heck, no. crap.

58) Consider yourself a good listener - Not bad, not bad.

59) Have a future dream that you would like to share? - Nope. you'll laugh anyway.

60) Get Along with your parents - depends, again.

61) Save your e-mail conversations - automated.

62) Pray - To say my please and thank yous

63) Believe in reincarnation - Weird, no.

64) Brush your teeth twice a day? - Mm hmm.

65) Like to talk on the phone? - yeapp.

66) Like to eat? - yeaaa.

67) Like to exercise? - fair enough.

68) Like to watch sports? - uhh, yup.

69) Sing in the car? - YEAHH!

70) What is a dream that you have all the time? - Stuff in school, but all mixed up.

71) Dream in color? - yea.

72) Do you have nightmares? - *sniff.. yea, always in fright of loosing something..

73) Sleep with a stuffed animal - ma pink the pink teddy.

74) Next to you - next to my head.

75) On your favorite coffee cup? - like most of 'em.

76) On your mouse pad - powerpuff girls :)

77) Your favorite flavor of gum? - mint.

78) Favorite deodorant? - err, no..

79) Your dream honeymoon spot - Hawaiiiiiiii <3

80) Your dream husband/wife - Not really planning on getting married. pfft.

81) Hiding in your closet? - hide and seek.

82) Under your bed - never tried. i watch too many boogie-man-under-the-bed movies.

83) The name of one of your best friends? - Nuuuuts, Neeeeels, Poppyyyyy. Can't choose
between them.

84) Your bad time of the day - In the early hours. I get pissed easily.

85) Your worst fear(s) - No.1 horror/thriller movies. i get jitttery and i won't be able to sit still or open my eyes.

86) What’s the weather like - It's dark.

87) Your favorite time of year? - depends.

88) Your favorite holiday? - Christmas.

89) A material weakness? - dunnoee.

90) The weirdest food or drink that you like: - i don't think any of 'em are weird..

91) At the top of your “to-do list”? - Get someone to print my project.

92) The hardest thing about growing up - Knowing you can't re-live the precious moments.

93) A pet peeve? - what's that.

94) Your scariest moment - Remembering bad, bad memories.

95) Your attitude about love? - nahh.

96) The most outrageous, desperate thing you’ve done to attract the attention of the opposite
sex? - not telling you people.

97) The worst feeling in the world - uncountable.

98) The best feeling in the world - Freedom :)

99) Who sent this to you? - aaron. and he had the nerve to remind me that he tagged me.

100)Tag more people? - oh yeahhhh.

nellie. i live to torture her..
her and her only >:)

taggy tag tag.

2009-06-26T10:52:00.000-07:00

Just when i had nothing better to do, tagged by yeelian :)

1. Have you been ever asked out?
Yeaa..

2. Where was your default picture being taken?
Uhm, don't know.

3. What is your middle name?
Don't. It pisses me off when we talk bout names.

4. Your current relationship status?
single and proud of it :D

5. Does your crush like you back?
oh well..

6. What is your current mood?
drowsyy..

7. What color of underwear are you wearing?
purple.with stars ;D

8. What color shirt are you wearing?
grey..

9. Missing something?
excitement.

10. If you could go back in time and change something, what would you do?
puh-lease, there's no IF. Don't build castles in the air..made a mistake, live with it.

11. If you must be an animal one day, what?
we ARE animals. right?

12. Ever had a near death experience?
uhm, not that i know of.

13. Something you do a lot?
Think. I'm a great thinker, you'll see :D

14. The song stuck in your head?
There you'll be - Faith Hill

15. Who did you copy and paste from?
yeelian.

16. Name someone with the same birthday as you?
daniel sya & teo ze-lyn ;)

17. When was the last time you cried?
Almost a month ago. While i was watching wolverine. It IS sad okayy..

18. Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
With a large group, yea.

19. If you could have one super power what would it be?
I'd love to be a control freak.

20. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
The smile :)

21. What do you usually order from starbucks?
it varies.

22. What's your biggest secret?
There's a reason why people call it a secret, pfft.

23. Favorite color?
black.

24. Do you still watch kiddie movies or tv shows?
I don't think tom and jerry's kiddyish :P

25. What's on your walls?
posters.

26. What are you?
homosapien.

27. Do you speak any other language?
bring it on :)

28. What's your favorite smell?
rosemary and lavander.

29. Describe your life in one word
rojak.

30. Have you ever kissed in the rain?
aww, never got a chance to.lol.

31. What are you thinking about right now?
if i can wake up on time tomorrow.

32..33. What should you be doing?
In bed.

34. Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
I don't keep track.

35. How often do u talk to God?
The best day, everyday.

36. Do you like working in the yard?
why the hell not..

37. If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
freeman :) haha.

38. Do you act differently around the person you like?
see for yourself..

39. What is your natural hair color?
coal.

40. Who was the last person to make you cry?
hugh jackman - no.17

I tag :-
nellie
minchi
ze-lyn

the calm before the storm

2009-06-23T06:53:00.000-07:00

This sucks.

I'm gonna do my projects for a change..

la da di dum..

0.o

2009-06-22T07:52:00.000-07:00

What if my chances were already gone?
I started believing that I could be wrong.
But you give me one good reason.
To fight and never walk away.

Imma strong woman :D haha.

Finally we get to play volleyball. We've been fighting for God-knows how many times just to get to play.

Anyway, i have loads to do but as usual, not gonna do it.

Bye <3

thoughts..

2009-06-20T10:56:00.000-07:00

I've always dreamed
That my life could be
Like a fairy-tale
A perfect fantasy
Every day a new adventure
On some undiscovered shore
Was it nothing more
Than a dream?

Yea, that was just..something.

Why do people lie.

You were my refuge..until word came about..

It's all confusing me.

Who's right and who's wrong?

i wasn't avoiding you.
I just don't know who to trust now.

dying..

2009-06-15T06:13:00.000-07:00

My phone's gone. Gone!

GONEEEEE!!

I'm officially the most miserable person on the globe..

lonely nights..

no text-bitching..

just plain LONELY!

So you can understand why i absolutely NEED to go to school. Not being nerdy here. Just need to get away from my 5-star prison cell.

Okay, now. Let me tell you a joke. I was watching Penguins in Madagascar or something like that. They were planning to get popcorn. So they were talking about succeeding in the mission.

King Julian ; Otter

"I will..i will.."
"Suc-ceed?"
"No, no, no. There will be no sucking seeds around here."

HAHAHA! GET IT?

Isn't it funny?

Lol, i couldn't stop laughing..

Ahahaha..going a wee bit kuku over here. Got my papers today :S I wasn't happy. I repeat, WASN'T HAPPY. At all! Not to mention all kh projects are due next week. Curse you, scum!

A word a day, keeps the low grades away :)
- pfft, what rubbish -
pissed off = annoyed, disappointed or unhappy
eg. She-who-should-not-be-named's really pissed off with the education ministry and wishes to sue them if only she had enough money to do it.

heh, can't catch me. It wasn't me :P
Smart lehh..

worth it :D

2009-06-04T21:46:00.000-07:00

Surprisingly, everything went well on tuesday. Almost everything. Well, karyn wasn't there cause the chipped her teeth. Again. You should listen to her story.

I used a hundred over bucks. You people better pay me back after the holidays.

Once again, happy birthday sammy!

She really enjoyed herself. Obviously.

Kayy, won't reveal too much information..

pinky-promise ;)

That would be the last day you'll ever find me out of the house. I'm grounded for 4months straight. For no valid reason, probably for not studying enough. I just got my bm results yesterday. Screwed up.

Plus, i haven't started on anything. ANYTHING!

And my table is stacked up with stuff i'm supposed to do. Which i'm not gonna do.

Going out-station on saturday. Bye.

2009-05-31T19:42:00.000-07:00

Don't worry sam, there's still next year. It'll be even better. I promise you :)

I've been shopping non-stop for the past few days. Woot! My mum actually asked me when i'll start studying again. I mean, woman!? Are you outta your mind? I just got away from my living nightmare. But i haven't been studying enough cause, cause, cause..

i got 40 for kh..

*sniff *sniff..

say bye bye to notebook :'(

yours sadly,
pookss :'(

over

2009-05-29T19:32:00.000-07:00

...exams are over...

frankly, i'm not that relieved. Cause the worse is yet to come. But at least,

i get to use the com :)
i got my phone - life support, back :))
i can go out once, with my friends. Pfft.

Sounds fun. But it isn't. I'm gonna bore myself out :( It's 2 freaking weeks! Oh well, i need to correct my projects anyway. Have to re-do almost half of my geography stuffs. The damn goverenment people changed that format for history. They just have some kinda master plan to ruin our lives. I bet my money on that. Plus, tuition's still on for that first week. Technically, i don't have a lot of time on my hands.

Bleeeeuuuurghhhh, i'm gonna spend my holidays anyhow i want. Can't stop meehh.

Weird as it sounds, i've been studying myself crazy, not wasting any minute or second, filling my over-packed studying schedule with more studying, that i don't think i know how to have fun anymore... rwarrrr, this sucks to the max.

I will redeem myself :D It's just a matter of time.
And the help of racusss.

speaking of racuss, our issued-warning-letter-for-egg-and-flour-throwing-in-school anniversary's coming soon ;) We've got to celebrate that. The day the racuss ladies made history in sri sempurna. 4th of June.

Happy Birthday sammy!!

dear poppy,
you've been a superb friend ever since i met you and you still are :D Sorry i can't be there for your special day.. We have other plans, haven't we ;) all the times we've had together last year with our racuss..whether it's in school,

or out of school..

and now we've grown into young ladies - who still camwhore in school toilets :)

All i wanna say is just pull yourself together, life's not that bad. You'll get through it. I learnt that the hard way. So, just live your life and i'll see you soon :) i hope..

all my love,
pookyy

i don't think she'll see this anyway, happy holidays everybody. Not so happy holidays for the victims of pmr.

yours hopefully,
pookyy :)

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2009-05-18T05:42:00.000-07:00

This is a short notice to announce that my bloggie will be dead for this week and the week after :)

Not that anyone cares but i just wanted to let the world know how responsible i am for notifying it and that i AM studying for exams and all :D

I just absolutely loooooove studying!

not.

yours nerd-ly,
pookyy

mother's day :)

2009-05-10T00:33:00.000-07:00

This goes out to all mothers, both young and old :

Happy Mothers' Day :D

I already got my mum her mothers' day pressie. Well, it's not like i had a choice.

mum ; me

*walking in klcc..
"What are you going to get me for Mothers' Day?"
"Uhmm, not sure yet."
"Good, my friend introduced a lip conditioner from mac. You can get that for me."
"How much?"
"I think my friend said it was around 60bucks."
"But you lips look just fine! Reeaaalllyyy supple :)"
"Yeah, yeah. Divide it among your sisters which means 20bucks each. Oh look! There it is!"
*rushes off into the shop..

Sooo yea, i had no choice. And that convo was days before i even knew Mothers' Day was approaching. Or else i would've made her a dopey card or something. Which i did. Rather than 20bucks. But i'll get her back on Children's Day. She wouldn't even know what had hit her.

>:D

Just yesterday, we went to midvalley. Haven't been there for ages. So might as well 'celebrate' mothers' day there. My mum brought us to a jap restaurant which looked nice enough for dinner. It was really not bad. Only we did some really stupid things.

All of us ordered green tea. Yea, you know when they serve soba with the cold sauce and all? My mum mistook the sauce for her cup of tea. So she took it and drank it. Lucky she was controlled enough to spit the sauce back in the cup instead of spraying the sauce everywhere. Things she does.

Then i ordered teriyaki chicken and it was served on sticks. I tried to prise the chicken off the stick with my chopsticks. It was kinda stuck so i prised harder. Then the thing slipped off, flew and landed on scallops. Bull's eye XD

This kinda reminded me of one of my childhood memories :) Me and shantal were quite young and charmaine was still a baby. I remember we just had ice-cream and we wanted more but my mum didn't allow. After that, my mum, my sisters and i went to a jap restaurant. Then my mum and my sisters passed me and shantal the little pot of wasabi and told us it was ice-cream.

I had a little tinge of suspicion cause i thought the packing was kinda weird. Metal pot. With a cover and all. I was a smart kid :) so i took half a teaspoon and ate it. Shantal was the really smart one to take a big scoop and shove it in her mouth. I don't remember after that. We must've cried till the roof came down.

Moving on, dessert was great :D

Shantal ordered mochi. With ice-cream. She vacumed it all up before i could even ask for a bite.

I ordered some funky vanilla ice-cream with wafer thing. With chocolate inside. It looked cute in the menu.

The sundaes were the best :) Well, they're called parfiats or something. Not sundaes. I call them sundaes. Anyway, i ordered banana-chocolate/chocolate-banana and took everything in. Partly because it costs 16bucks.

Charmaine ordered a parfiat/sundae too. Hers was honey corn. Whoever's heard of such invention?? I was too baffled by it so i didn't try. Looks ridiculous to me.

Speaking of charmaine, her birthday's coming. So remember to wish my loa-wanna-be sister on tuesday, 12th of May. She likes it that everyone know's it's her birthday. Oh and wish Robert Pattinson happy birthday too. His is on the 13th of may :)

I spent about an hour at borders to pick out a few books and i ended up with :

The Infidelity Chain - Tess Stimson
The Other Side of the Story - Marian Keyes
I'll Be There For You - Louise Candlish
Evermore - Alyson Noel

Which reminds me, Mr shitface confiscated my book. Dammit. It was one of my favourites.

i WILL get it back.

Eventually.

You WAIT!

Then i redecorated my wall till 2am and went to sleep. The next morning, my mum was greeted by Taylor Lautner plastered all over my wall.

GO TEAM TAYLOR !

Okayy, i've had my fun. Gotta do my geography project now.

Cherio!

yours joyfully,
pooksss :D

a single one-way ticket

2009-05-08T21:14:00.000-07:00

One Way Ticket

Standing on the border
Looking out into the great unknown
I can feel my heart beating faster
As I step out on my own
There's a new horizon
And the promise of favorable wind
I'm heading out tonight,
Traveling light
I'm gonna start all over again

And buy a one-way ticket
On a west bound train
See how far I can go
Cause I'm gonna go out
Dancing in the pouring rain
And talk to someone I don't know
I will face the world around me
Knowing that I'm strong enough
To let you go
And I will fall in love again
Because I can

Gonna climb the mountain
And look the eagle in the eye
I won't let fear clip my wings
And tell me how high I can fly
How could I have ever believed
That love had to be so blind
When freedom was waiting, d
Own at the station
All I had to do
Was make up my mind

And buy a one-way ticket
On a west bound train
See how far I can go
Cause I'm gonna go out
Dancing in the pouring rain
And talk to someone I don't know
I will face the world around me
Knowing that I'm strong enough
To let you go
And I will fall in love again
Because I can

Well,
I have walked through the fire
And crawled on my knees
Through the valley
Of the shadow of doubt
Then the truth came shining
Like a light on me
And now I can see my way out

Buy a one-way ticket
On a west bound train
See how far I can go
Cause I'm gonna go out
Dancing in the pouring rain
And talk to someone I don't know

Buy a one-way ticket
On a west bound train
I'm gonna have my breakfast
With some pink champagne
Gonna sail the ocean,
Gonna spread my wings
Gonna climb that mountain,
Gonna do everything

New blog, new plans. Unfortunately, i'm too young to travel alone.

Anyway, i'm baaaaaack! :D I know it's been really long.

Pfft.
Eff-ing dramas going on.
Having sleepless nights.

I'm getting better handling at all this :)

I've been really really busy nowadays and i think all that work kinda s-l-o-w-e-d m-y b-r-a-i-n d-o-w-n big-time. But i still finished my history!! Now, i'm gonna have another why-i-hate-pmr session.

i don't get to go out.
can't use the com much.
can't sleep like a normal person.
having my mum stalk me all the time.
i cant even celebrate my special day!

Gawd-ness. I'm all up against studying. Who told me to have an ambition as impossible as taking on Mt.Everest.

*sighhh..

yours worn-outly,
pooks <3